For some reason, I cannot focus on hardly anything lately, except for one thing….. purging.
My heart, mind, and entire life has collected an over abundance of stuff. I want to start over and just reset everything. This purging process started off just as material things. I began on the first of January going through my things. Getting rid of the excess “STUFF” I have accumulated over the years and just simplifying things again. Little did I realize more was actually going on.
I keep pretty much everything ever given to me. I am, essentially, an extreme packrat. I am very sentimental and attach little things to memories or people. I am very attached to the people around me, my family, friends, people or kids I’ve worked with and the moments we share. I could care less about the material object itself – it may just be that a particular person gave that item to me and it takes me back to a memory. I can be taken back to a moment and a time I shared with someone with the smallest colored piece of paper. I keep all letters and cards sent to me. I feel it keeps me connected to that person and it helps me never to forget the moments in life that we shared. I will actually be keeping these keepsake items that have moments attached to them, if they are paper and a picture won’t do it justice. I’m hoping to eventually make a scrapbook out of these pieces. The other material stuff, the bulk, the excess – if I don’t absolutely need it, I’m taking a picture of it and getting rid of it. It’s not been easy, but it’s necessary.
There was a time when I first gave my life to Christ that I would give up everything… and I want to get back to that. The following verses have been soaking in and have become more convicting than usual:
He (Jesus) told them: “Take nothing for the journey—no staff, no bag, no bread, no money, no extra shirt.” – Luke 9:3
…“You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” – Luke 18:22
For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. – 1 Timothy 6:7-8
I want to be done being tied down to so much stuff in life… I want to just GO, and obey the call Jesus gave His disciples. Taking nothing for the journey, selling everything and giving to the poor, being content with food and clothing. I won’t be taking anything out of this world so why hold onto the stuff? I need to go, follow Jesus… and the purging continues…