Outpourings from an imperfect but redeemed & treasured heart of clay.


For some reason, I cannot focus on hardly anything lately, except for one thing….. purging.

My heart, mind, and entire life has collected an over abundance of stuff. I want to start over and just reset everything. This purging process started off just as material things. I began on the first of January going through my things. Getting rid of the excess “STUFF” I have accumulated over the years and just simplifying things again. Little did I realize more was actually going on.

I keep pretty much everything ever given to me. I am, essentially, an extreme packrat. I am very sentimental and attach little things to memories or people. I am very attached to the people around me, my family, friends, people or kids I’ve worked with and the moments we share. I could care less about the material object itself – it may just be that a particular person gave that item to me and it takes me back to a memory. I can be taken back to a moment and a time I shared with someone with the smallest colored piece of paper. I keep all letters and cards sent to me. I feel it keeps me connected to that person and it helps me never to forget the moments in life that we shared. I will actually be keeping these keepsake items that have moments attached to them, if they are paper and a picture won’t do it justice. I’m hoping to eventually make a scrapbook out of these pieces. The other material stuff, the bulk, the excess – if I don’t absolutely need it, I’m taking a picture of it and getting rid of it. It’s not been easy, but it’s necessary.

There was a time when I first gave my life to Christ that I would give up everything… and I want to get back to that. The following verses have been soaking in and have become more convicting than usual:

He (Jesus) told them: “Take nothing for the journey—no staff, no bag, no bread, no money, no extra shirt.” – Luke 9:3

…“You still lack one thing. Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” – Luke 18:22

For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. – 1 Timothy 6:7-8

I want to be done being tied down to so much stuff in life… I want to just GO, and obey the call Jesus gave His disciples. Taking nothing for the journey, selling everything and giving to the poor, being content with food and clothing. I won’t be taking anything out of this world so why hold onto the stuff? I need to go, follow Jesus… and the purging continues…

1 Comment

  1. I went through something very similar a few months ago, and I can tell you there is SO MUCH FREEDOM at the end of the line. At first it feels like prying something out of our iron grip, but in the end you feel the freedom to grab hold of something else, something eternal! You’re blooming, and growing. Keep pressing into the Lord and He’ll reveal to you everything that needs to go. You won’t look back!
    Much love in Christ,

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