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Lessons in Humility

Before a downfall the heart is haughty, but humility comes before honor. – Proverbs 18:12

I’m walking with the Lord and He’s teaching me some major lessons in humility… this has been going on for a few months now, but I know He started this process from birth. It’s gotten more increasingly intense though the past few months.

It is easy?

Not at all.

Is it necessary?… ‘What could be more necessary?’

Yes.

As a follower of Christ, we’re supposed to be intimate with humility. Truly, without humility is it even possible to submit to the Kingship and Mastership of our Lord?

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. – Colossians 3:12

I don’t usually like to give notice to generational “issues”, but the ancestry from both sides of my family have major pride issues. Don’t we all though? Yes. I’m noticing a lot lately how pride manifests itself differently in each individual, but that there are often patterns in how this pride surfaces based on how it’s passed down the bloodline.  To deny that we each come from a sinful lineage where pride is usually king, is to almost deny our desperate need for our Savior. GOOD NEWS THOUGH! We are redeemed from this sin of pride and the generational curse of our natures! Yet it comes at a cost, a bloody one… because sin is passed down through our bloodline, we had to get a new “blood transfusion” as it were from a Lamb without fault. The Holy Lamb of God – Jesus.

Each time I would rather hold onto my pride than walk closely in humility with Jesus, I still end up falling… but as with every sin, it typically has repercussions and is not only painful for me, but effects the relationships around me. Pride is a disgusting and scary sin. Normally I wouldn’t use the word “manifest”, but that’s my second time stating it in this post. It really does display itself in very subtle and sneaky ways, it’s a sin that can be “justified” by our intellect, our excuses, our “spiritual jargon”, etc. We can so quickly and easily live in this sin without recognizing it… swimming down De’Nile (denial, incase you didn’t catch that, ha) with our hard hearts and justification of misery.

The longer I noticed when I swam there though, the more I realized I was swimming in the opposite direction of where Jesus was and is. Fillet your heart open and keep it open to the blinding light of the holy Lamb of God though and He’ll very quickly show you the pride of your heart and where/how it manifests itself in your life… who would you rather want to be? And be with? Alone in your pride or alive in Christ Jesus?

I haven’t always chosen this path, but I want to be with Jesus… rather than hold onto this pride.

So I’ll keep consuming the humble pie God sets in front of me, because I’d rather be nourished by Him anyway.

I’ll elaborate more in the upcoming months on more specific “lessons in humility”. That’s all I have at this moment though.

Feet to knees, face to floor – the only direction to go at this point and the only place I want to be.

1 Comment

  1. Beautiful. I love the verse, and I love the sweetness of your spirit!
    Love you girl!
    Helena

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