This was an old blog that I simply saved in my drafts. I have so many unposted drafts. I guess I didn’t think they were complete, or maybe it wasn’t the right time to post them, or I got distracted/interrupted mid-write. Either way, I’m gonna try to go through them and finish or just post them. This was one I never finished. I wish I had, and maybe it’s now more of a ‘to be continued…’ post. I remember when I wrote this and all the questions (and the MANY that are missing) that I asked myself during this time of my life. Yet these questions and the challenging verses showing God’s standard/answers to them still apply even months later…

December 28, 2011

I have so many questions burning in my heart that have been challenging my current “nature”. I’ve asked them of myself mostly sarcastically because I know what God’s standard is, but I’ve been treating others around me differently and have concluded that I’d become something/someone that I shouldn’t be, especially over the past few months. This shifting back to God’s standard began when my parents blessed me with a Willow Tree figure for Christmas reminding me of who I am in Christ – rather than who I am in ME and when I let the world condition me and I start letting society or a human standard be my authority over Christ (not gonna happen anymore!). Thank God for my beautiful parents! As I’m writing these questions, I’m looking up Bible verses to back them up. I need to really dig into God’s word some more on these, plus I have so many other sarcastic questions that I haven’t mentioned…

Since when did love start becoming about ME?

…it is not self-seeking… – 1 Corinthians 13:5

When did things I do start hinging upon how I feel?

Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. – Romans 12:10

When was love ever circumstantial? Or has an excuse to leave or give up?

Love never fails… – 1 Corinthians 13:8

When did I ever start getting hurt or holding grudges?

… it keeps no record of wrongs. – 1 Corinthians 13:5

When did I start disrespecting my family and friends?

It does not dishonor others… – 1 Corinthians 13:5

When did submission and obedience to God start becoming “optional”? And “love” become just another human emotion?

“If you love me, keep my commands.” – John 14:15

“If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love.” – John 15:10

When was friendship ever based upon what someone else does for me?

My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. – John 15:12-13


To be continued…